Let me just start off with a basic intro, my name is Carolina, I'm in 8th grade and have been at the school district I come to for the past 4-5 years. My favorite colors are dark ones, I'm completely obsessed with bands, YouTubers, TV shows, Marvel movies (not comic books but movies), book series, etc. I have parents that are divorced, I hate when my nails are super stumpy and short, and when people chew with their mouth open I will literally punch them in the [insert things I can't say because school].
Now that we've got that covered I'm supposed to tell you about my experience at my middle school (or the whole 4th- 8th grade experience) and let's just get this straight, my experience here was complete trash. Seriously it's not even high school and I've had even worse scenarios in my life than actual book characters. I wouldn't be surprised if I have a worse experience in high school. Of course just because it was (mostly) trash doesn't mean that there wasn't anything good or just plain out memorable.
Like the time some of the guys in my grade got blamed for when one of my friends threw their hot dog at the wall. I found that hilarious and didn't stop laughing for like five minutes, or maybe the time when I was hanging out with two of my friends (who were on a sugar rush) and we saw a red balloon drifting through the sky and suddenly one of them was on the floor laughing like crazy.
That was before all this trash happened and man I won't let my ex-friends live those things down. I also dated someone (who I won't sell out) and we had a nice relationship, at least I thought so. That lasted for maybe two whole months.
This whole school experience was completely strange and such a roller coaster. From being deep into depression to beating it's a** it's been like one long (no offense but boring) strange step in my life. I mean nothing wrong with it I'm sure a lot of adults have mid-life crisis' and I might just a have gotten it a bit earlier or maybe there's something huge about to happen and I might be happy for a long time. In which case, cool!
But I'm gonna tell you something one of my favorite band lead singer said, "Remember to be your own freaking hero sometimes."
In all honesty he didn't say freaking but I tried censoring the most I could. Patrick has a point (the guy who said it) I can't count on a lot of people. Sure, everyone says,"go to adults!!!1!! They're going to help you!!!1!2!" But believe me when I say that no, I've been disappointed by all of the adults in my life at least once. I get it though, no one is perfect, so I have to deal with some things by myself. I've been trying to pay and just make decisions by myself.
I love re-watching my favorite part of HSM over and over again but I needed to grow up pretty fast. With adults and so called "friends" who've screwed up to many times to my liking, I had to learn the fact that life is a [censor, well, if you can imagine a big black bar that has "censor" in blocky white letters then you've got it].
On the bright side, a lot of people admire me for it. Most adults that I meet always say that I'm really matur for my age, so I'm glad I get that compliment.
All in all I'm pretty sure that I wasn't supposed to give you my life story but it's got to do with the experience at my middle/very small elementry school experience. Now, it's currently 11:04 pm and I have some more homework to work on.
-Carolina S
